It was end of 2009, i was almost suffering from my break up
with ex boyfriend. All i could do was wake up, go to office
call friends ask about my ex boyfriend. Tell u truth i kinda
was a robot!!! with no feelings and nothing at all. felt
like i almost lost my everything.
Almost everyone in family knew about it and was upset, but
they never showed me they try to keep smile if I'm around.
but i always knew they were upset, i blame myself for that.
mostly in nights thinking of him i feel tears in my eyes..
sometimes wonder whether he will miss me! he will think of
me!! what did went wrong that he left me??? will my tears
will be ever valued?? will i ever have guts to trust and
love some again?? my only and last wish was to meet him one.
i still remember that first day i saw him. it was our
semester break we were having group studies in college. As
usually i was late for whole two hours. They almost covered
half of syllabus without me.
As soon as i joined the group some one said"Bella, Jake
wants your number?"
I was in shocking thinking why Jake wanted my number and
wondering who was this what he was doing in my group?
he was tall, had curly hair was dark had a cute smile eyes
were brown. i just stayed at him until my friend beside him
teased me by telling
"Bella he is taken, stop that?"
my cheeks went red and i took my book and went to sit away
with other friend around the corner that was our first
Jake was my best friends boy friend. later when Jake came I
got to know that he was Jake's friend and name David and he
was in our course too. Jake introduce him to me and we soon
Then following days we were like a Couple every where
together, i kinda forgot about friends never had time for
them always going somewhere with David, days were magical.
soon our exam was over and we got holidays, and as almost
everyone left for there homeland.
i was alone because till David had his exam on i wanted
spend more time before i leave so i stayed. we did enjoy my
stay lot, visited may places took lot of pictures. it was
tearing me apart to go for holidays till them i was sure
that Dave was my love of life I made my mind before i leave
i will tell him what i feel about him because i don't wanted
to lose him ever? i felt he also wanted that
so with lot of courage before the leaving night i text ed
Dave that i want meet him, without any hesitation he came
that's also leaving the match were his favorite team was
playing cau you image that? that proved me that he had
sometime for me? that night before me he said that he loves
me lot and we did spend whole night together holding hands
just like new born.
As time came for me to go he was sad i could feel that but
he assured me that we will have great time when i cum back
next semester and we will tell other about our relationship
It felt like i was only human being on earth but as
everything has tow sides i was afraid of the speed that
things were changing.
my holidays went sleepless and waiting to see him again.
I came back One week before semester so at least we can get
time to spend together and he did same he came too.
but this rime he is changed even though he is with me i felt
something wrong i wanted to talk to him but all he says not
know its my TP time. later
and then that later become forever later.
i remember the last words of him" Bells i went on a date
with a girl.. i think i umm..umm.. like her not sure may be
love her.. can i see her again?"
the words were like someone is stabbing poisonous knife into
all i could asked was " Dave don't you love me any more?"
his answer was " umm..I dono bells! after you left lot
change.. I..'m s..o...r...r...yyy!!!"
i did cried but he didn't knew that.I wanted him a lot for
my life but he was not meant for me!!
then slowly i gave space him to so that he could think and
choose me. but he was fast he made the choice and moved with
all i had was tears and broken heart till today with
questions and unfulfilled waiting.