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There’s been someone that I cared and loved so much. For
once in my life I’ve felt the warmth and happiness that I
never felt before; that there is magic in every laughter,
every touched and every moment was worthwhile. Have you ever
thought, how sweeter could love be?
Everything began, when I was at the third year of my high
school. It all started in one afternoon; everything in my
life began to change. I was just sitting in the bench
waiting for my driver to pick me up when suddenly I bumped
some of my classmates and asked me to go along with them.
Without hesitation, I stood up and gone together with them.
As were walking along the sideways of our school campus,
Lisa the girl who had a long straight hair of our group, one
of the famous genius of our class and was also called our
class president began to whisper to them, “do you see what I
see?” “What? What? What did you see?” they replied. “Have
you seen those two they’ve been silent for minutes, aren’t
they perfect for each other?” “You mean Ashley and Jake,”
they cried out loud. “Ashley and Jake are perfect for each
other,” they began to teased. It actually annoys me but
suddenly Jake the tall, dark and one of the hottest athletes
in our school began to pushed me so hard, I began to feel
mad at him and in return I give him my best shot to pushed
him. When I noticed that it passed two hours so I hurried to
the gate but Jake stopped me and began to ask if he could
walk me to the gate of our school and I agreed. That day was
one of my best days ever. From that day on, I started to
think how small things could make you so happy. So day after
days, we do the same things after we were dismissed by our
teacher like doing some silly games, walking along the
sideways of our school campus and goofing around was our
thing and every night Jake and I would exchanged SMS
messages.
Four months have pass, I’ve been thinking it out to myself
why this crazy little things could make me gone insane, it
feels like every day was full of happiness and surprises.
The day of the talent show came everyone was thrilled and
excited. The room was full of energy and everyone feels like
dancing, well except me and a few of my classmates. Jake
came to me and wants to goof around again I feel annoyed but
I find myself caught up in his silly jokes, the way he
smiles and laugh made my heart leap in every time his with
me. He gave me courage to be who I wanna be and so I dance
with him. There was even a time, when I was paired with
another classmate of mine he was known as Chase the coolest
nerd of our class and by the time we were dismissed Jake had
been avoiding me. Upon realizing that he was been avoiding
me it makes me feel happy the thought that he was jealous of
me together with another guy. Night came, I send him an SMS
message containing “Jake, I know we’ve been close for a
little while. Just tell me honestly one thing, are you
jealous with me and Chase?” I waited for his reply but it
never came.
The last day of the school year came, I was beginning to
think that I was drawn unto him and decided that this would
be the day I would confessed my feelings for him. I can’t
let things end just like this; feels like my heart would
lose a missing piece without him. I ran all around the
corners of our school but I never saw a traced of him. My
heart became weak and restless, like my heart wanted to
burst in excitement just to tell him that I love him way too
much and I would feel breathless without him.
Summer came and I’m having the most boring days of my life
stuck in my room checking the net, until an SMS message
came. “I know we’ve been good friends. Whenever you need me
I’ll be always here for you. You can even share your secrets
to me. Now, can I ask you a question, who is you’re crush?”
It came from Jake, the thought came to me as I received the
message what if I tell him now, and my heart was beating
faster and thought how would I reply him? So I decided to
tell him the following day. Early in the morning, I raised
up from my bed just to send him an SMS message containing:
“What if I tell you, it’s you?” He never did replied.
A week came and I received the message that I’ve been
longing that Jake would tell me and it said, “I LOVE YOU.”
Knowing that he loves me, my heart jumps filled with joy and
happiness. Without hesitation I send him an SMS saying, “I
LOVE YOU, TOO.” It had been one of those happy moments of my
entire life. Days pass by and everyday I’ve been feeling
blue.
The month of June came and I’ve been feeling excited in
seeing Jake again. It was never long enough until the first
day of school came I walked along the hallways looking for
him but before I could do so I met some of my classmates.
We’ve been talking for a moment when I noticed there was a
familiar figure heading towards us. Knowing that it was
Jake, I turned around as if I didn’t notice him. When
suddenly Vanessa one of my tallest classmates during third
year and the one with black long hair began to cry aloud,
“Ashley, its Jake.” As he walks along behind us, he suddenly
touched my shoulders and I began to feel uneasy to move, it
brings me sparks beneath my spine and my heart pounding so
rapidly. Vanessa teased, “Hey, look guys Ashley is
blushing.” Upon hearing those words it makes me feel so
embarrassed. Realizing that Jake and I aren’t classmates
anymore it makes me feel insecure and missing him more and
more. Whenever we meet at the hallways, we can’t stop
staring and smiling at each other. The following day, I was
busy talking with Vanessa and I never noticed that Jake was
just right behind us. I began to spoke, “Hey, who turned off
the lights?” I feel so uneasy upon realizing that it was his
hand that is binding my eyes, no wonder it is so warm.
Everyday Jake would come and visit me in my classroom. There
was even a time I was bullied by my classmates not anyone
cared for me but except him. He tried to protect me from
being hurt. He even said, “I would not allow myself to let
anyone hurt you.” During that moment I feel safe and
comfort. All my tears dried away because he gave me courage
to believe in myself. Usually every love story ends in
happily ever after but not all.
It was a nice weather to start the day not until I heard
that Jake had a girlfriend but I thought it was just a big
joke played on me. I never believe what the rumors say.
Everyone was dismissed and so I headed to Jakes class I saw
him together with Bianca one of the campus heart throb of
our school. I felt my heart crushed into pieces as I see
them talking and glancing at each other. My tears started to
fell so I ran off and headed home. I made a promise to
myself that I would forget everything about him. The
following day, there he was at our class trying to catch my
attention. He stared at me, his eyes full of questions. But
I didn’t mind. He didn’t know how much courage I take to
cover up my pain and endure it all. The following months was
the most heart breaking moments of my life? Every day I
would just stare at the window pane thinking of him,
wondering if he misses me too, even during lunch time I
snacked out of our class and head towards the restroom,
there I would cry alone all by myself all those sad thoughts
kept running gently in my heart the feeling that were close
yet we were so far away and each night all those magical
moments we had kept ringing in my head all night, the
feeling of warmth and happiness was now long gone and the
pain that I can’t bear take over me. One afternoon,
accidentally I met few of my classmates last year and Jake
was there too. When he saw me he began to turn around and
walk out of the room. I hate the feeling whenever someone
turned around me. I began to rush unto Jake like my heart is
controlling me and telling me to do so. But I lost the sight
of him. I believe it was never an accident but it was fate.
There was a time, I saw Jake cry alone, and my heart is
thorn as I saw him cry, I can’t bear seeing him cry and all
I wished for him is happiness, during those times all I had
in mind was to hugged and comfort him and tell him that I
still love him but there isn’t a need for me to do so
because I never was his girlfriend. So I hide behind the
tree and deny all my feelings for Jake when all I wanted was
to spend another moment beside him. But I was drowned with
all my heartaches and pains, thought I could get over him
with just a month but a month wasn’t enough than I expected.
There was also a time I had my craziest moment that I
couldn’t even control of myself in chasing after him but
there was no sign of him. I was tired and my heart is raging
with desires for him. Thinking, how would I smile without
his presence? How would I laugh without him goofing around
me? But, I don’t wanna think I’m selfish just because of
love.
Graduation came, but this time around it was different. When
I tried to look in his eyes, there I saw full of curiosity
and pretending but still I don’t know why. My heart is
confused and all I could think was him. His name sings in my
ear, the moments we had been stuck in my head, his heart was
still dwelling inside me, though tears reappear as the
seniors make a farewell to the high school life. Knowing, I
won’t see him no more my heart was filled with sadness.
After graduation, I felt so helpless every day I can’t eat
well and each night I felt sleepless crying over him.
A year had passed but I never regret knowing Jake, knowing
that he is happy, I would be happy too. There were moments
in our life we gave up just because of love. But we choose
to love over and over again even though how many times we’ve
felt pain. Because knowing that we have live and had loved
was the most wonderful thing that God had given unto us and
I’m grateful, if I hadn’t known Jake I may never know what
it feels to risk everything for love.
For now I know, love is the sweetest pain, love is the
sweetest feeling that we can’t resist. For the people who
read this story believe it or not, true love really does
exist. Just keep on believing that fate, destiny and love
are in your hands.
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