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i remember each and every moment spent with him, even the
pettiest of details still feels like yesterday. i first saw
him when i joined this new school. he was very rude and
unwelcoming, i had a fight with him on the very first day.
after months
we started talking, i just started finding him very
interesting and after a few weeks i started thinking of him
as a good friend. i never really told him much but just
listened to him. unfortunately, i got a dare from my friends
and i asked him out he thought i was otherwise and told me
that he likes me too. i thought he had forgotten about it, i
never really talked to him about it and i just kept on
assuming things which was a mistake.
we did stuff
together like, we would pass each other notes in school,
roam around in the breaktime but that was it. the cutest
moment was when i asked him if he could come to meet me
after school as he used to have his soccer practice and i
stayed back for some school work. i was going to the cafe
with my friends when i saw him waiting with his friend just
where i asked him to meet me, so that is something i still
remember because it was something sweet yet so kiddish! but
then ofcourse we got into a major fight because of our
classmates, they created misunderstandings and after that we
didnt even feel like looking at each other.
we used to be
in the opposite corners of the class.
we came to a new grade, we both were happy in our respective
lives. i hadly even noticed him although we were in the same
school activity but we didnt even look at each other,
atleast i didnt. but then after months he started becoming
friends with my friends, which was confusing for me but i
hardly bothered. my friends were desperates and they
accepted him as a friend.
they used to
play games and stuff together but i didnt because of him and
i knew he was aware of that. i remember the excuse he found
to talk to me was whether i was going for this concert or
not and i just told him a no! he asked me for a week and
then didnt. he would just stare at me a lot and talk to my
best friend a lot but i tried to be oblivious as much as i
could. then one day my friends surrounded him and started
asking him who did he like? and he took my name, my friends
told me that and it was so shocking for me. i didnt know
whether to be happy or not.
he HAD to ask
me out when he wasnt even ready and i didnt know, i became
his girlfriend, but we didnt do anything that would say we
were in a relationship we hardly talked. then i took a stand
and to clear out everything, i called him although he was
having an extra class, he talked to me and answered
everything. he did like me a lot and i was very happy, the
next day i planned to surprise him by being the sweetest
girlfriend ever.
i had planned
a few things but when i came to school something else was
planned for me. i was talking to my bestie, telling her how
much i liked my boyfriend, when my friends came upto me and
told me that he was talking ill about me to people, i got
very angry and in a rush i broke up with him. i was as
confused as much as he was. after the breakup i secretly
started talking to him online and i found that he was a very
good person and i was falling in love with him, but somehow
my friends came to know that i was talking to him and they
created misconceptions again. we stopped talking, stopped
looking at each other and here i was falling in love with
him....this was the end of one more grade!
the next grade starts and in a month i came to know about
some shocking truths, one of my friends in our group had a
crush on him so they tried to break us up but well nothing
could be done now, we were not talking anymore. she even
asked him out but he said no! well i was happy. so anyways
after 2 months of our break when we came back to school,
things had changed, he was staring again, talking to my
friend again and again we had started talking online. he
would eavesdrop and everything. one incident or rather a day
which is still special is my birthday, he had brought me a
gift and i was unaware, he was so shy when he gave it to me.
but then he got sick and didnt come to school for almost a
month.
when he did
come back we were having a great time, he would make me
laugh, eavesdrop and he sat right infront of me, so i
thought something was going to happen. i even gave him a
birthday gift, a wrist watch and he wore it everyday to
school for sometime, then he would jus bring it in his bag.
he even picked up a fight with his friend for it. i got sick
and didnt come to school for a week and in that week
everything changed.
he told my
friends he liked someone else. i couldnt be more
disheartened and that was the time when i realized that i
was in love with him and now there was no looking back, i
couldnt get over him. everyday in school was mundane, yet he
would do sweet things for me which annoyed me but when i
looked into his eyes they were full of guilt and i couldnt
get more sad. the only thing i didnt understand was i could
see it, i could feel it, we both loved each other, we
couldnt even stand together, there was that unsaid awkward
silence between us and somehow i was aware of it. once i saw
him pretty low in school and i had a talk with him, i told
him to ask her out and that she likes him too. the very next
day i came to know they both were together, the only part
that surprised me was that i didnt cry, i was happy for him.
then we got so busy with exams and everything that we didnt
talk again. after exams just a while we would talk online
and thats it. and one more grade ended!....
our sections got different, he took up different subjects
and i thought that this was the new beginning, but sitting
in a different classroom killed me. although i could still
see him everyday but not everytime. after months my bestie
suggested we write a mail to him telling how i feel and i
got so influenced that i did. i did get a reply from him, a
positive one, that shocked me. but anyways after a few days
he asked for my number and we would send each other forward
messages, one day he sent me a romantic message and i knew
what he wanted. the very night he called me up and asked me
out, i refused i dont know why, i told him maybe after our
exams and that was my mistake and his mistake that he
thought otherwise.
so then my
bestie had a talk with him and he told her that he just
asked me out for fun and he didnt like me at all. it made me
very angry, i called him up frantically but he ignored.
after a month i called him and we discussed, he totally
denied asking me out and we ended fighting. how was i to
give up so soon. i tried again after a month, i called him
and then he told me that he likes me a lot and that i
screwed up, he had to lie cuz he thought i made a fool of
him infront of my friends. things got sorted out and we
started going out. everything was fine, he was so busy with
his studies that it sometimes made me angry and impulsive
with him, but then things would get fine.
after two
months we broke up again becuz he was ignoring me a lot and
i thought he didnt like me anymore. he accepted it, didnt
talk to me at all, infact ignored me so much that he just
didnt take my calls. i felt insulted and in my ego i didnt
bother about him...and there we go again....another grade
ended!
this was our last year in school and i wanted it to be
memorable, but somebody wanted it the other way. he started
getting into fights a lot, he changed as a person. after a
month we again got into a fight because of some stupid
reason and after a week he apologized to me. afterall it
wasnt my fault. i thought things would get better with us
again and no! this wasnt out time indeed, another popular
girl asked him out and they both were together now.
things were
bad for me this time, i cried, i was like bella of new moon
for months. but my friends my oh so lovely friends! were
there to make me going. i had the most fun time that year,
he did call me on my birthday, i did call him once for some
work, he did stare at me like he will eat me all the time
when we came across each other in school but it was all
good, he was still with that girl and i was happy in my
life. our school was ending we had our farewell night, i
cried like a baby thinking that one guy i ever loved didnt
even say a goodbye but no! he approached my friend but he
couldnt find me.
my friend told
me later and i messaged him but he called me back and that
night we talked for more than 2 hours. by the end of the
conversation we had bid our goodbyes to each other. but
things took a u turn, we were again talking and discussing
how stupid we were to screw up every year like that and that
how much we liked each other. it was a really emotional
moment for me to know that those moments which were special
to me were to him too. but one night he cried like a baby
over the phone because i told him that i wasnt really
serious about us in 8th grade. for him it was serious, for
him he did love me, for him what we had was so special and
in that instant i knew he still loved me. things eventually
grew and even after our exams ended and school finished we
got together again.
this time it
was great, it was different, it was very serious. i couldnt
have been more happy. we had our sweet little alone moments,
everything was great, but he was too possesive and insecure.
so something went wrong and we broke up again, this time it
was a major breakup. but i discussed with him and he agreed
to work it out, we werent under the label of relationship
but we were still talking like we used to, we even hung out.
he made my birthday special and then after two days he told
me he liked someone else.
he was
to go to another city for his college and i was staying in
the same city for college. so i just knew this was the end,
after a week he told me that he was with that girl.
currently we are not talking anymore, its not like we are in
a fight, i dont have anything to talk to him and so does he.
if hes happy then even i am. the story ends here, i can
never get over him but i am moving on, building my life
again....
so i guess we
never really were meant to be but we gave it an honest try!
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