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It's hard being young because people think you don't know
anything about life. But truth be told, I don't think I will
experience anything worse than I have, who knows I could be
wrong but still.
In early to mid 2007 I met a boy named Jake. I was 15,
nearing 16. He was 16, nearing 17 or just gone on 17. He
captured my attention instantly at a mutual friends party,
there was something there but after the party I did not talk
to him often. Roughly a year later we started speaking again
and the sparks were still there. We planned to hang out but
I started dating his close friend before this. A few weeks
later his friend and I broke up because he was pretty much a
pig.
Soon after this, Jake and I started to hang out, before we
knew it on the 24th of October 2008 we started dating at a
gig. Most memorable night ever. We were THE couple, all my
friends wished they had someone like him. Then I became
moody, we started fighting heaps. In May 2009 we found out I
was pregnant. It was the best and worst news I'd ever
received. We agreed to abort even though he knew I didn't
want this.
Things became too much and I ended the relationship in June.
After this, things got hectic and Jake couldn't let go. He
decided he wanted me to keep the baby but I'd already told
my mum I would get an abortion because it was what she
wanted.
After the abortion I didn't speak to Jake for months. Then I
found out in August that my friend was crushing on him. I
began to talk to him again because I knew he'd start dating
her and I wanted us to all be friends. It broke my heart
when they started dating, and hearing about their sex on
myspace. The girl even said if she didn't know any better
she'd think she was pregnant which sent me spiralling. This
entire time I cried every night and crawled into foetal
position I was so sad.
Finally, in late September we both admitted that we still
loved one another. They broke up, she is still my friend and
moved on and I am happily with Jake again. He is a few
months shy of 19 as I am of 18. Nothing can separate those
whom are truly meant to be together. Still gets me down
sometimes that I had an abortion and he had another girl
whom he felt for, but I'm moving on and we are happy
together. :)
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