First of all, i would like to say sorry if my spelling or my
writing is not good enough, because i am an Indonesian and
i'll try my best to write this in English and hopefully all
of you would understand to my love story.
This story took place at 1996 in a small town in East Java
Indonesia. Since i was in high school, all my friends called
me a playboy who would easily change girlfriend from time to
time. But nobody knew about my dream that someday i really
want to have my really true love that will change my live
and guide my trough the rest of my live.
I had dream, that my dream girl must not from the same city
as me, and she would be completely unknown girl that i'll
meet her by coincidence.
And then come the graduation day that i am finished my high
school. then i try to take test for an university in the
city of Malang, it was a small town with lot of joy and warm
environment. But destiny make me failed at the test for that
university. and with a broken heart and hope, i walked
trough the street in front of the announcement board when i
first saw this girl. An angel that comedown from heaven in
my point of view. I brace up myself to get a chance to say
hello for this girl and somehow i know that this is the
answer for the girl that i am dreaming of.
Her name that she said to me is Mimi, what a strange name
for a heavenly look girl. At that moment there are split
doubt in my mine that this could be the one. But i said to
my self, Hey there's nothing to lose in this case. i might
not see this girl anymore. There were just ordinary
conversation between us, what's her name, where's she come
from, and that just the same questioned for me.
So i went back to my town of Surabaya, and went to a local
university just wondering would Mimi will call me, or she's
just another ordinary beautiful girl that i met.
O ya,...i had still a girlfriend back there, her name is
Miyuki, i know it's sound like she's from Japan or
something, and the fact is her father was studying in Japan
when she was born.
But when i had enter the college world, i found myself lost
the world of love for her. hey...that just me, the playboy
in my world. And when the day had came for me to say goodbye
to Miyuki, was the surprising day for me. Mimi called right
after i hang up the phone to Miyuki and told her goodbye.
This is it, the sign from God that i'd been waiting. The
heavenly beautiful girl had called me, what a surprise.
Not to loose anymore time i just get to my car and go the
address she gave. Just 30 minute from my house, i finally
saw her again, the most beautiful girl i ever met even until
now that i am married to other woman.
3 Month latter i found myself in heaven. The world full of
joy and happiness with the passionate love that i feel with
her. Nothing in this world could stop me from seeing her
everyday. I skip classes just to met her in her aunty house.
4 Month latter, the second surprising day of my live
happened. The 2'nd day of Moslem Idul Fitri's holiday, her
aunty house was empty, no one home, all her family went to
her back home in a small town called Jombang. She had no day
off from her office, o yeah i forgot to tell you that she's
not goes to college after high school but she got the jobs
in National Telecommunication Company.
She look sad in her house because of the day off that she's
not had from her company. We start to had our dirty talk and
then not knowing whose started it, we start to kiss in
different level. I had my hand inside her and started to
kiss her not just in her lips, brave enough to explore any
possible part of her body.
Just for your information, in my country and most of East
Asian country. Sex is not a common behavior in a
relationship. because sex is still " Tabu " in a religious
country like Indonesia. I myself, even though many called me
playboy had never kiss a girl in her lips before i met her.
I always imagine that my girlfriend must be a pure heart
love with no lust. Although a man of my age at that time by
all odds must seeing a porn film or had sex experience from
a prostitute, but not me. Yes i had my collection of porn
movies, yes i had my self service sex experiences of my own
but not to disgrace my love for my girlfriend with lust.
So if you know what i fell, The sex experience with Mimi
would be one of those days that i will remember trough the
rest of my life. The passionate felling, the guilty part of
my heart disgrace my life principle, The love that full all
my heart and soul at that moment.
Days by days we went trough together there was like playing
in heaven gardens. Yes we had some fight or argument but
that's all just 1% of our 100% love to each other.
And then the hurricane coming. Right in the second years of
our love life, we had a serious fight, until now i still
can't remember what the cause of it. and in the second days
of our fight, there i stood still in front of public phone
right a cross my campus, there she said that she had
pregnant. Not like i didn't wanted any kid, i would love to
have children even though i still in my third semester of my
college. But what make it really hurt was that she had
pregnant with someone else. Yes, someone else.
words after words she said like a ton of rocks hit me right
in my face. Just like i am boxing with Mike Tyson.
I hang up the phone and walked my self a cross to my Campus
like a walking deadman. There were to much noise in my mine,
so much pain. I drove back to my home just to found my
lovely sister and cry there in her lap.
The next 7 days just like leaving in hell. i got my self
runaway to where ever places that would not remind me of
But i could not stop my feeling that i still love her to
much and miss her voice. So i called her in her office, and
then we both cried again.
The worst part me was knowing that her soul and body not
mine anymore. And the worst part was that her man who she
had pregnant with was gone. He fly himself running away
abroad ( Malaysia ).
Mimi just could not stand anymore of this, she tried to get
her self abortion by drinking some pills. And then come the
days when she must told her parent about this. And the only
man who strong enough to walked her through all this mess
was me. Yup, my love for her was very strong enough to
accompany her back to her parent and told what happened.
I still clearly remember that night, a lot of crying and
shouting. Her mother was very upset and mad at her. And her
father just stood still could not say a words.
The most tragic part was when they knew that the baby was
not mine. Her family were very ashamed, her mother said many
times of sorry to me.
As her pregnancy keep on growing, me and her family decide
that she could stay in her parent house, as all you must
know is that the eastern culture still can not accept
unmarried pregnancy. Then we all decide that we must hide
her somewhere else to prevent any suspicious from their
In my country there are many of what we call " pesantren ".
It's a school only to learn Islam religion. So i hide her in
one of the " pesantren " in a small village far away from
her town. I told the " kyai " ( the head of pesantren ) that
she is my wife and she wanted to had deeply more learning of
Month after month i keep take care of her. Twice a week i
drove there to her pesantren with my motorcycle even though
it's 1 and half our from my home.
The day come when it's 5 o'clock in the morning when she
called me and said that she was in paint and the birth of
her baby would be in a short time at any moment now.
O..yeah i forgot to say that my parent and all my family
didn't know that i still keep in touch with her. I knew that
if my parent knew about this relationship, then they would
be very upset to me.
And so a minute i got there i called taxi to take us to
hospital, and i stayed there just wondering and realize that
i am very in love with her and i will take care of her baby
as my own son what ever happened.
The first cry of her baby got me back from my revery. And
when the nurse called me to carry her baby, i whispering the
" Adzan " of moslem in her tiny ear. Yup it's a baby girl.
2 month after the baby birth was a happy moment of me and
her, yup we had our love back, we take care of her baby
together as father and mother. It's just like i didn't care
anymore whether my parent would now the truth about us or
not. Just like i am ready to become a father.
Then storm hit us again, or may i said it hit me again. 8
Month later she told me that she wanted to working again.
She wanted to earn money for her child and not depending
anymore to her parent for all her child needs.
At that time i myself had working freelance job in my
brother Event Organizer. i knew then that with her pretty
looks and her great body, she would had a clear chance to
become a freelance Sales Promotion Girls, usher, or even a
So i took her to one of the big cigarette company and apply
there to become one of the Sales Promotion Girls, as i knew
that they had a promotion program that need many of Sales
She was so happy when she got the job, then she start
working there and we keep or lovely life together.
What i didn't knew was that brought her to her job would
lead us to the second storm of our life.
She keep working hard in that company, one shift become
double shift, a day shift turn to night shift, and the worst
was our time together was less then the usual.
The day she called on that day was the second round i must
face that giant of Mike Tyson again. That day she told me
that one of her boss propose her to married with him, and
that she had already special relationship behind my back
with her boss.
The sky become dark again for me, once again i could not
stood still, my body trembling down and could not said a
All i could said in my lost mine was...It's all up to you
girl....then i hang up the phone once again....
After all the story i told u above, you must think that this
is the end of my story. But you are wrong, this is just the
middle part of my story, because my sorrow still continue.
after that terrible phone, once again i must called her
parent and explained about this. And all i heard just
another crying from her mother and another sorry words.
6 Month i found my self in a dark cloud life, days after
days i continue my life with a deeply broken heart.
i could not sleep, because i am afraid dreaming of her. I
always try to stay awake as might as i could.
And then that beautiful voice that i am afraid to hear,
suddenly appear again in my life.
She called me, and told me that she miss me and wanted to
see me. Then that strong feeling of love rush back to my
heart, all the dark cloud disappear and the sun shine of
love shine again brighten my heart.
And so we met again, in that ice cream stand were we first
date. i sat there watched her walking to me.
Still in found her a very most beautiful girl i ever met.
Just like in the first time i saw, It's an angel down from
Not much to said to each other, we just knew that we still
love each other, the only thing that i asked her was she was
married or not, and she said not. Then i never asked again
about her story, because knowing that she still single was
enough for me, and i didn't want to know the rest of the
So we watch a movie theatre and rushing back in a pouring
rain with my bike to a motel, we were making love there like
we were in heaven garden...again.
3 Month we spend like nothings gonna separated us again, but
maybe i am just a fool who always believe in true love, or
maybe i always though that the playboy inside me had met the
real love i need.
The third and the last storm hit me again...but maybe right
now i had already prepared myself. So she start working
again in another jobs that she found. She worked as an
administration staff for a kitchen ware company.
And the the same story happened again. she fall in love
again to one of the worker there. Hey...don't ask my
why..because until now i still don't know why she keep
coming back to me just to hurt me again and again.
Like i had told you readers, i am just a guys that still
trying to finish my college at that time, i am not a rich
guy who will spend all my money for some girls.
Then for the last time, i must hear again the same sorry
from her mother, sister, and her father. For sometime i
still met her and called her...but it just makes me more
So at the fisrt time i got a chance, after finishing my
college i moved to other city at other island but still in
From that day until now, i still don't have the answer about
what she did to me, i still don't have the right reason why
she loved me and then must hurt me again.
All i know is the story above change my life to what i am
now. the song that might be has the same story for me is the
song by Celline Dion & Luciano Pavarotti " I hate u the I
love u ".
And you know what...i still miss her and will always love
her even though i don't know where she is right now. And i
am just hopping that she have the the same feeling like