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I married my husband over 20 years ago and I always felt
there was
something not quite right and felt it must be me as he kept
saying
everything was ok and we went on to have seven children. We
also spent the last ten years looking after his mother up
until she died in
February. That's when our lives would get easier but I could
not be more wrong......my relationship with my husband was
still sexually limited. I sat him down and asked him
outright if he was gay and he admitted he has known since he
was about 14.
I have to admit I felt gutted but not shocked. I am trying
to be
supportive and even went to gay clubs with him so as he
could find his way round and meet other people. I'm finding
it very difficult as I
still love him and want him to be happy. I know he could
never have come out sooner because of his parents and the
strict catholic upbringing he has had. Nick still wants his
family, his home, me and his lover. All I seem to be able to
do is be here for him.. I do feel so lonely and scared at
times wondering what tomorrow will bring and wondering if he
will still want his family as he does now.
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