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She was sitting there. in the front row of the classroom..
She was the hyperactive chatty gal that I would love to
loathe...
At first sight, there was simply nothing extraordinary about
her. I was annoyed at her seemingly uncontrollable
mischievous personality. But then again, I looked beyond
that and recognized her warm and mature personality... And
that her large brown eyes enthralled me....Captivating me
with her sweet and jovial smile...
I fell in love with her........
There was only one thing I can... and must... do... I gotta
let her know how I feel.. I did, and that's the start of a
wonderful, forever lasting love... or at least that's what I
thought.
Those were the happiest times of my life. I would call her
numerous times a day..... Life for me was heavenly. I had
always dreamt of loving my other significant half to the
max, even when I was a young child. This was a dream come
true for me. She was almost the perfect girl I had dreamt
about before. She loved me as much as I love her (I still
do...). I would embrace her tightly to feel her warmth and
kiss softly on her forehead. I long to be with her forever.
Words alone could not describe the blissful times I had with
her. Her distinctive voice would just banish my blues away.
We never squabbled before. Life is truly a heaven to
experience such a true love. For me, true love is always
0.1% lust, 0.9% attraction and 99.0% appreciation. I had
always appreciated her and so did she.
Those times went on for 2 years. But then, the inevitable
happened. She became aloof, unresponsive and her cheerful
disposition had diminished. "What happened to her"? I asked
myself...Gradually, she lessen her phone calls to me. I
tried coaxing her to talk to me but to no avail. Then, after
weeks of coaxing, she finally told me that she had changed
(she didn't know why, it just came all of a sudden). She
told me that our characters do not match and sad to say that
we should not continue the relationship. She implied that
I'm a person who does not care much about the world around
me (which is quite true as I don't trust friends and I'm
quite a loner) She also said that there are small little
things that also add up to her unhappiness. I was
devastated... I didn't know that she felt that way all this
time... Well, I knew about my weaknesses but I thought that
she accepted them. I cried and pleaded her to stay on with
me but to no avail as it was only the most sensible thing
for a matured person (such as herself) to do. She said that
its better for us to separate rather than go deeper into an
unhappy relationship than is doomed to failure (which is,
sad to say, true). I am still in a deep depressed state. Its
been 4 months since she broke up with me...
How I hope to be with her again. Its actually not her fault.
She was doing the only sensible thing (to break up before we
go any deeper). Sometimes, I feel like life's fragile.....
A beautiful thing like love can be ended abruptly Feels like
a precious thing had been taken away from me...
Just like a beautiful rose that withered away....
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