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Imagine for a second that a young couple so deep in love
that they can't see beyond each other's eyes, plan out not
only a pending wedding but as well what will be a blueprint
for the rest of their lives together.
Next imagine that for one night all is forgotten. It's funny
how your world can turn upside down in an instant either for
good or the bad. The ironic thing is that she wound up doing
both to me. Now I have some simple philosophies about
relationships and one of them just seems to be about trust.
"I will always trust you until you give me a reason not to."
She said that there was going to be a girl's nite out at a
local club and I told her I was fine with it because she
needed it (We were both going through some stress at the
time). After finding out that she had already decided not to
come back till around 3 in the morning, I decided to make
plans for myself so as I wouldn't be left alone all night. I
went to the other side of town to hang out with my best
friend whom I haven't seen for a long while. I planned
everything out perfectly so that I would be at home right
around 3 about the same time as her. Well as the night
progressed I was starting to get a little dependant on her
call. I was waiting to hear how here night was going or for
her to as how my night was going...... no call at all.
Right around 2 I decided to call her it was no surprise that
she was totally wasted but thanks to her friend from work
she was able to get home safely. I rushed to get back home
but was only able to make it by 3 like I had intended. As I
entered our apartment I found her boots lying in the living
room and also found her sound asleep in the room. Now here
is the part where I do admit that I could be wrong. As I was
setting up to go to sleep as well, I checked her phone and
her text messages only to find that she had sent various
messages to someone named Anna. By my own knowledge Anna is
a female name but these messages weren't made out on that
fact. It seemed that she was sending messages to someone
named Ricky which I can only think was her ex-boyfriend
before I came along a year ago. You also have to keep in
mind, that was the last piece of the puzzle that confirmed
my suspicions. On earlier occasions she would step out of a
room to make a call, became very private about the things
she did when I wasn't around, and to top it all off was
acting very separated towards me. I think that if it looks
like shit, smells like shit, then 10 times out of 10 it is
shit. My only assumption was that she is cheating on me. Now
here I am, the following day pouring my heart out to anyone
that will listen. Everything I have in life is in her. My
family is in another state, we've invested so much into each
other, and basically outside of this I have nothing. Just in
case your wondering if i'm making myself look like a saint,
i'm gonna give you some quick details about myself. I'm not
a drinker, or a smoker. I'm from what people tell me funny,
caring, and at sometimes out going. I have never done
anything to harm her and have treated her like a queen. I
guess I am a saint after all.
any advice?
I guess with everything in life we are just going to wait
and see the outcome. I really appreciate you taking the time
to read my story.
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