Far across the distance and spaces.. between us.... I am on
titanic. Wow... beautiful BLUE sea...
My visit to this island is awesome. I m roaming about in the
Suddenly some one opened the door with a "thud..."
Oh My!!! All this, is just a dream???? or is it a "The
Wat ever.. Today is the D-day!!
I'm a bit tensed n excited... All my friends from other
college said.. This
Day Thwy Wil mess your life.
Last night i had nightmares.. But!! how could I get such
hmmmm..am I trying to be bold..!!
Wat wil my brother say, if he gets to know that I am afraid
to attend the
NO..No!!! I'm nt.. am a grown up now.!! I hope the personnal
doesnt leave the
scapegoats with those beasts...chuckle chuckle...!!!!
oh Damn!! its already 9. gotta get ready.....
Off i went from the bed.. Landed in my washroom..and started
making up my
day with fragrance....
Next question in my mind..Wat should i wear??? A funky party
dress... or a good school goin boy kind dress???
I better go with the latter one...come on Kaushik...be a man
dressed up quickly!!!
My brother is almost set to start... I think its a better
one to go with
(He prays God and off he goes.....with his brother)
Ufff!!! Finally i reached the venue... I hope i dnt come
across those man
(He meets all his fellow mates.... greeting each other..
They all wait
outside the venue. waiting for rest of those late comers..)
Jag: Oh Gosh!!! Look at them we have huge number of chicks
towards the venue...Yahoo!!!
Sag: yeha.. I like the one in pink...
Kaush: oh GOd!!! Hw can these fools roam about gals??? i jst
hate it.. I
wonder how people get attracted to gals..Thank God!! m
not in such messs....
Jag: Lets go guyss.... Follow these Gals....
Wow.. The Banquet seems to be very cutely decorated... Wow!!
surely did it heartfully...
I can see.. all Senior gals..Flaunting their newly draped
Senior Sirs all dressed like Boses!!!
Wow!! m glad I dint miss This opportunity
THey organising some fun shows.. My classmates performing
My neighbour, all eyes on the girl sittin in the next row...
wonder Why do people fall in love??
Is it kind a Virus or something which effects the life of
horrbily. Why do only boys fall prey to girls first.. why do
girls care a
damn for boys??? All these silly teeni-meeni thoughts ..
Rao(to his neighbour): Hey.. I guess something wrong with
Lolz!!! His eyes aint attracted to even a single Gal...
All Those remaining romeos Laugh out for those silly
I laugh within myself...Duh!" You silly Dogs... Even I
admire the beauty
of girls.. atleast I'm not as mad as you fools...!!"
one Thought struck in my mind.. " Am i really not intersetd
nah..!! I remember.. Last week i saw a gal at TTD. She was
good.. But was
total flamboyuant.. I am not interestd in such girls.. and
the other one
is..one at the OUTPOST.. Wow!! she was pretty good.. Bold
Hair.. hmmm... " I can get the flash of that girl..."
Chuckling around... i even followed her to her house.. Wow!!
That means i
am perfect.. Nothing's wrong with me...."
THe Entire Drama of this poor soul is within himself.. an
Knowing nothin about the world.... With a blank mind and jst
Smile on his face.... He was enjoying the Bash.... His
Soul,as pure as
Until The next moment....When I saw one of the God's Finest
Mistakes.... A Slender Girl with Shining Hair..Dazzling
With BLUE color Saree..takes the ramp.
.... My senses got struck with that Flash.. forgot about
called..OUTPOST Charming Lady... I Felt, I am Born that Very
moment...I felt..I was mesmerised..I Could see
nothing..except the charming Girl...!! Three minutes from
then.. I was
Oh My!!! Ravishing Beauty.. I should quickly pass this
message to my
friends.. I Want them to compliment the beauty of that
Kaush: Hey U Guys... Guess Wat!! I came across the Most
I've ever seen...
Kaush: I'have seen one of the most beautiful girls in my
life. Her beauty
seems to be extremes.
I Pointed them to the God's Finest mistake... They seem to
not much attracted by her charm... and they started pulling
Jag: WOw!!! You cal this a beauty??? Lolzz!! We have double
beauty upfront our eyes.. and u cal that thin lean chick a
Kaush: May be she is not beautiful but the Charm on her face
is not seen
anywhere in this crowd... For my eyes she is the Limelight
for this Bash.
She is so simple, yet so elegant...
I tried defending my self by praising the angel i saw for
the first time
in my life...
End of the Day... Had A great time enjoying with my
seniors... and i
totally forgot about the stunning beauty,as I dnt show much
Four days from now.... I dint get even a single thought of
girl......I was Still the same.. I still hate people being
in love. I
feel its waste of time and cheating on parents by doing
without their knowledge.
I bunked The college one day... Got into the bus..and
slipped away to
watch a movie... Loads of fun all around... and i wonder.
how am i so pure
at my heart... I find jealousy,hatred al around me.. and I
am still the
same.. Nothin seems to be effecting me.. I am Defintely
proud of being
Day -2: Lazy Day again..Wake up early.. Get freshed and off
I go to The
My College bus..Always a colorful one..All time DTS sounds
coming out of
it... and the weather seem so clear..cool breeze travelling
us..slight drizzle!! Wow man.. This is Life.!!!
I sat at the Window place. To enjoy the nature. Truely the
on the way to my college is really awesome.
Bus stopped at one of the junctures to pick our fellow
students.. and it
moves again.. I heard a girly Voice with strong accent..
I looked at the person talkin to me so politely... Oh Damn!!
She is the
girl i saw at my freshers..!!! I almost mumbled before i
She asked..if anybody is occupied with the next seat.. I
just nodded my
head with a sigh..
She pleasantly sat... and adjusted herself...
My heart almost started beating twice the speed of normal
pulse.. I was
trying to control my mind for no reason.. Thinking to
myself.. Why am i
I was controlling my senses.. and then i hear a second voice
Gal: Hey...Can u give me that window place??? I like sitting
That moment i felt, I can give her my life if she asked
for... I offered
my place gloriously..
Very Happily she sat down at the window and looked out of
the window.. I
dint bother to talk to her...As I am Seriously not
interested talking to
Five minutes from now....She says..
Wat's Ur name????
My Heart started beating thrice the speed than before..
I said.. "Kaushik!!"
Gal: wow!! Thats a good name.. I like that name... and Which
branch are u
Gal : hmm..pretty good.. I dint find u anywhere on freshers
Me: I was there.. I saw u. I dint find u in my class til
now. which row
do u sit in class
Gal(giggles): I am your Senior...
Oh Damn!!! I have crush on my senior??????????? am I
crazy??? may be my
friends were right.. I am a bit abnormal..I got crush on
I felt embarrsaing for few minutes and was just sitting
But the way she spoke with me.. I thought shezz a nice
girl.. and was just
glad for having crush on her.
I took the initiative and asked her...
May i know ur Name...???
Gal: Duh!! I dnt have the habit of telling my name to
juniors... and how
dare u take out your mobile phone when I am sitting next to
I was shocked to hear such rubbish sentences from her.. I
to myself. She must be a very head strong arrogant gal.. and
said sorry and hid my mobile inside my pocket
I was feeling embarrassed to say to myself I have crush on
She suddenly took lunch box out...searched for the spoon in
her bag... i
could find only one book in her bag and a lunch box..
She finally succeeded in reaching out for the spoon... and
lunch box.. and started eating like a newly released
I thought she doesnt have breakfast and is eating her lunch
breakfast.. my heart started pitying her. When she finally
"I had my breakfast.. I am just trying to taste the curry my
mom made.. I
Love This curry... "
I laughed to myself..This Chick seems a bit crazy.. All the
Way she was
trying to rag me.. She spoke everything in a arrogant way..
She gave a
real wrong impression.. I was delighted I dint reveal to any
frineds that I Have crush on this insane girl... However,
She is not so
beautiful when I saw her For the First time.. I agree her
wonderful.. I can grade her Hair as the only asset.
My First Journey with a girl I had crush on.. Was Totally
I heard People having Crush, enjoy the ride with their Loved
ones.. But My
Case has gone vice-versa
I Wished..I should never sit next to this arrogant girl...
Finally,We reached our Destination....I was thankful to
God.I wil get rid
of this beast.
Gosh!!! We reached the colege...so early??? I hardly got to
see my time..
My heart started Sinking.. I felt Something is moving away
far from me..
I was totally blank out.
The Bus stops Suddenly with a jerk... I could see out of the
of boys on the parapet.
THey all looked at my bus and started shouting out some
wierd names... i
was Wondering who were they trying to call...
To my shock all those brats were actually calling the crush
next to me..
Oh My!! Wat a girl Man!!! She is a Tomboy.. Itseems all
these guys here
are her friends..
She said.."Hey move..I wil get down"
I Gave her way and my heart almost slipped out,when she said
with a smily
arrogant expression.."Come early to the bus and hold on a
place for me"
ooohh...!! My heart wil full blossom with flowers.. i felt i
was flying in
the air.. I was so excited and wished it was end of the
finally she left and joined the mob of all those brats...
I was thinking to my self..why did i feel so glad when she
told me to hold
a place...Wah!! She is the most beautiful i come across. I
her just to catch a glimpse of her cute smile... :) But she
back.. i started praying all Gods to make her turn once...
Just to see the
simple expression on her face.
Some power dragged me towards her.. Woh..Ther's magic round
I pulled myself out of the magnetic force..towards her...
and reached my
I Forgot about her the entire day...As you know, I am
intrested in girls..
But the whole day I ws thinking to myself what could be the
name of that
arrogant Senior Girl. I was trying to recollect those names
, boys were
shouting out in the morning.. But all my memory couldn't
It was break time now and we were out to have look on the
of our college... I suddenly heard a weeping out loudly...
All girls .jam
packed him and started shooting questions on his sadness..
replied anything except.. Trying to say out some name and
some cursing for
I Wonder even Boys are timid these days..This guy looks very
seems very sensible in nature..I thought i should give him
support. moreover he sits in front of me for exams.. So,its
always a good
idea to share his ideas now,ultimately he wil save me in
I went and asked him.. What happened???
I never understood wat is that... I asked what happende??
Did Ali rag u???
he nods his head and again says..."Its not Ali...."
My sense has become so strong... It provoked me very
strongly.. Its Your
I Loved the name so much....I left the girl(weeping) and
went back to my
place to recollect the beautiful name...
Wow...God is really great!!
How could she get such a beautiful name.... I'm so glad have
crush on such
a beautiful named Girl..
The Pessimist side of me..said.."Hey dude confirm if its ur
Girl or not!!"
I thought..Yes!! I should confirm...Went back to my roll
number 11. asked
him to show me the Girl and i wil fix her right!!
Roll No. 11: The one who sat next to you today morning... :(
How on earth can a man hurt his own heart!! I was dumb
struck and tried to
slip away from him... I never got angry on her.. On the flip
devil inside me provoked to learn what she did to him...
I quicky rushed to him and asked him...Wat is the Flash
He was feeling so embarrassed to say.. I giggled within
have done something wrong with this poor soul... I never
bugged him to reveal his past... LOLz!!
Roll No.11: I was on my way to library, There ws a herd of
halting every passerby.. I calmly tried to slip away...
A female voice suddenly stopped me saying.."Good Morning
I knew they were calling me..So I still continued to walk
I got caught between those beasts..
One woman, army was there and they dragged me in..
I said..I thought our freshers is done So there would be no
is why i tried to rush away..
GaL in the mob(Goon): Ok..Forget it..Just clear this sily
not ragging anyways... and I wil make sure no body ever
tries to harm
u...If u give wrong answer then forget about all your Lab
Holy crap!!! She is really a Goon...
Roll No11: Yes Ma'am ask me and I wil try to answer you.
Goon: Ok my Dear!!! just tel me this simple thing.. Why are
Roll No.11: Ma'am I am not handsome..I dnt know.
Goon: Who the hell says You are not handsome...Being a Girl
compliment,You are handsome.
now,quickly tel me why are you sooo handsome...
Roll No.11: Sorry ma'am.. I dnt know
Goon: ok buddy ...then forget about your exams..You may rest
in peace now.
I wil make sure you dnt clear your exam..
She even Said..,My Name is "Alisha..." Plz go and complain
to HOD,If u
have guts!! and my dear Handsome..If HOD gets to know
about me...Then I wil make Sure You are no longer Happy in
College..Please Go ahead and decide destiny. Lolz!!!!
Roll No.11: This Is what happened..If I complain She might
i Dnt complain She wil make my exams flunk...please Help me
Kaushik...What shoul I do now??
haahah...My guess was Right She is that chweet goon... Wat a
I tried to console him.."nothin wil happen..Seniors just try
juniors.. She is a nice girl..Nothing will happen to your
On the other Side.. My Heart was flying....Ooooohh!!
Wat's Wrong with me.. Why am i feelin so glad..hearing about
I was thinking to myself.. I wish I was there in place of
this Roll No.11.
I would atleast get to see her simple expressions....Atleast
i could get
to hear her name....
Lucky soul...Roll No.11
It was end of the day.. All the day I ws thinkin of her
beautiful name.. Saying again ang agin to myself...
She is relly beautiful...
I rushed so early to the bus.. and held a two seater for
both of us... My eyes were waiting eagerly for her...
After sometime..I could see her coming with her gang of
goons.. I laughed to myslef...
The closer she was coming towards the bus.. The more nervous
I was waiting her get into the bus..and it was almost the
time when the buses got ready to move.. She was still
gossiping with her frineds...
i couldnt control myself and called her out.... "Buses are
about to move...!!!"
She smiled and said... "Do I need to take your permission???
I am goin in other bus.."
I was lost with her reply.. I became so furious... How could
she do this to me.. All the while I held a place for her and
she just made it
simple b saying she is goin by other bus...I thought i
should never ever talk to her.. I was totally hurt with her
I dint even look at her again..and i shut the window pane..
All the way...i am feeling so guilty to say.. I have crush
on such a headstrong girl... She thinks She is very
beautiful...There are more than
hot chicks in my class.. What If she is a senior... She
doesnt have any right to hurt the feelings of others...
i wil never ever see her dirty face again...
My Story doesnt seem to hve any start or end...
Last night i was thinking to myself...i am a good Boy..How
can i go mad for a silly girl..what If my paretns and
frineds get to know about my
nasty thoughts...I am seriously not interested in girls..I
dnt even know what kind of Girl is she..But the way she
looks.. I am sure.. she must
have had affairs with 2 to 3 guys... i better stay away from
Fire and Girls...both ruin the lives...
I became so strong and decided to stop of tihnking of her..
I started hating her....All this while i was Praying God to
keep her away from my sight..I tried to forget her Beautiful
name.. Kept my self
busy in the college....
but the arrow of cupid hit me so strong.. Even if i could
control my mind...my heart always got attracted to her..i
myself,I wil just see her once a day.. and i wil think of
her just twice a day for ten minutes of time..
Days passed by....and the time frame of thinking about her
reached to 1 hour.. and to see her.. almost ten times a
As the saying goes.. Rules are meant to be broken!!!! Lolz!!
i spent two years..just seeing her... I still remember her
college Bag., saturday dresses,Her Hair style which often
changed...Flicks of hair
falling on her cheeks...her friends,roaming abouts in the
college and her masti... A tomboy with girly attire....A
very rare sight to see..
God!! She is the most beautiful...I am glad I have crush on
such a ravishing girl..
I hardly spoke twice with her... I never showed interest in
talking to her.. As,Everybody knows..I am Ain't interested
Just with these reimissences..I am now a super senior for my
August is in season....One of the best things happened in
Its my Birthday"....
I felt this year Birthday is very special for me... I ws
thinking to myself...Why am I so excited for this
My soul pulled me to a store.. and made me buy a Diary Milk
I was wondering...."why am I buying???"
Later i realise..Its for my Crushy crush...!!
oooohh.....May be that is the reason this birthday seem so
I reached the college...but I dint even have a glimpse of
her...I am genuinely not interested in girls...and
especially m not interested in
It was recess time..and my soul got activated agian..pulling
me towards her..
I went upto her and offered my heart...(chocolate).
She greeted me and shook hands and took the chocolate
Wowowo!!! I wouldn't ask anything more than this..Even If
santa claus asks me for a wish..i wouldn't ask anything.....
She is the most beautiful...God's finest Mistake!! :P
I reached home...and recollected my day...
Wherein, My heart started blossom with flowers...
I thought to myself for a moment...
"Am I in Love????"
Nah!! i can't...I am a very good boy.. I am proud of
myself.. being called"MAN WITH A GOLDEN HEART!!!" Lolzz!!
I cannot get into such mess... I just have crush on her..She
is the most beautiful I have ever seen..
well...I can grade her hair as the only asset...!! lolz!!
However,She is not so beautiful as my class tanvi... Woh!!
all boys in college drool seeing her.. And I am glad..i
never looked at her..
so,the bottom line is..I am a good boy and i can never do
i quickly decided and became very strong..I should never
ever think of her...
I slept hard...whole night.. the only thing I could dream
about is...Her hand shaking,her birthday wish and her
name... I wonder who is that
girl I am thinking about... !!
From autum to winter...Seasons changed,but my mind never
changed...I always thought to myself i dnt Love her...
I was praying my heart not to think of her....
I am outright and I dnt show interest for girls....
Its already Jan.."A new year with new resolutions..."
my new year resolution was not to get into any mess... and
just to go on with my life.
and days passed by.... When one Day... i meet her in the
Alisha: Hey Kaushik... Howzz u.
As usual..i am dumbstruck again... I started mumbling and
Me: Hai!! howzzz life treating you
Alisha: nothin much to say dude... Wi ll miss college aftr
somedays.. so gettin worried :(
"Damn!! I totally forgot.. Its goin to be hardly for few
days.. I can see her.."
Me: are.. you sure?? you wont come agian to college???
Alisha: Nope.. today is my last day with college ... and i
would be coming to report about my project work.
Anyways..Wil meet ya guys for farewell...
Me: Yeah...!! but..if I want to see you...
She gave some frowning expression and left...
My heart totally sunk... she is leaving me... she wil go
very far from me.... Do I Love her??
i started missing her from that very moment... !!
Days passed.. and I still have the same feeling for her...
She is moving away from me...
I couldnt see her anymore in the college...but my eyes
always searched for her.. My patience became so strong.. I
looked for her every
one hour in the college... i just wanted to see her
once...just once I want to see her waving pony, just once I
want to see her smile...
She left me alone...She took all the happiness I got from
her.. and Do I really love her??
The Farewell day:
I am no more the same... I am not intereseted in any girl on
recollecting my first look on her.. i am chuckling!!
My wait for her finally ended, When she entered,draped in
beautiful blue Saree...woh!! My conscious got blowed... A
sudden feeling of
happines... The same saree..The same attire...
she is the most beautiful...!!!
i greeted and welcomed her... i spoke with her somethin.. my
mind totally got lost.. I couldnt leav her.. my soul was
loitering around her....
the whole day I was just looking at her... I could see her
in my eyes... She is my fair lady!!!
Every one, including her enjoyed the farewel treat..except
The ended and finally she payed good bye to all her frineds...
When I finally took a chance and spoke with her.... I
offered her a beautiful Tulip!
Alisha: Thank u for the flower...
Me: Can i atleast know your name now???
Alisha: I dnt have the habit of telling my name to a
She smiled and left her presence.....while I was still in
I strongly felt.. I dnt Love her and just have a strong
crush on her....
I could control my feelings...!! she is a sweet girl with
Weeks passed... And i was very happy even without her in the
college... May be this is called crush...
We are all done with our exams.. and my seniors passed out
of the college!!
and I never missed her... When fianlly i met her once again
in he collge.
alisha: Hey kauhsik... Howzz u
I Lost conscious.
Me: i am doing good...
Alisha: Yeah!! This is my last day with our college.. I am
Leaving vizag.. i got a job in a MNC.
I am half dead by now
Alisha: Wat happend?? are you not happy??
i couldnt speak anythin... my mind was totally blank... and
then some things came out of my heart...
Me: Alisha... Please hold a seat for me next to you.......
I gues She recollected those words she once told me...
Me: do you know one thing???
I Love you...!! but I never Loved You.
Me:before you want to say somthing... I neer knew I was in
love with you... I love you..
you made my day..every time I see you.. I fell more in love
now that i know I Love you..i wil never let you go away..
I know you are confused... and you must be thinking this Is
just a crush and it wil end as you leaving the college..
But ..This is the start for me... i love you now and i wil
Love you for ever. And I wil marry you!!!
now, she is dumbstruck and I know she really has a very good
impression on me...
Seh spoke nothing and just left the place...with a very cute
smile.. which boosted up my confidence level to get her
I decided...She is the only one I am interested in.. I wil
win her at any cost.and I wil occupy the palce next to
Now i realise... I Love u,But I Loved You.