A warm, heart breaking moment...
I met this charming guy who has the charisma that would able
to charm and steal my heart instantly.
He is a guy who perform on Broadway, people said the white
man doesn't dance but he sure able to dance wonderfully. I
had a great time watching him performing in his Broadway
HE IS GORGEOUS!! His eyes....mmmm...his body...ouch!! ...Yeeeaasssss....Scrumptious!!
GOD WHY?? -- When I looked into his eyes I couldn't
concentrate on my conversation with him... I sound like an
idiot and not able to remember a thing.... I tried so hard
to rattle my brain just to explain my experience...Usually
it was easy to blague out the places I went and see or the
interesting experience that I did... I ended up not able to
speak English...HOW RIDICULOUS!!!
I tried telling him what I do and the interesting things I
did, but it seem like all the English words no longer exists
in my brain anymore...My mind was totally empty and my hand
was shaking.... My eyes has a fixation to his... I have to
take a deep breath and look down trying to balance my tone
of voice as well my feelings and then talk. I found I was
talking "Jibblish"... HOW EMBARRASSING!!
I have to look away or I would be totally into a freeze
state... I usually very witted, Charming, and full of myself
... Why when I with him I became an idiot. ...O o o o o
.... Come to think of it may be I shouldn't invite him to
come out for bunch anyway, he ended up paying the bill...
may be I should just left it alone and wait for him to call
me instead....ouch!! -- I didn't know if I did the right
thing! He seems to be eager at first when he invited me to
his performance... I hope there was an explanation to what
this Man was thinking.... May be he sees I was interesting
at first than after I made a fool of myself he changed his
mind. --I have no idea of the reason to his action!!
Saying good-bye to him was so hard without a chance in
telling him that I like him although we were just only met
for three days. It seem like it was just a moment of
happiness of love and then gone like the wind.
--Then my heart was broken once again. This is harsh, I wish
I could get to know him...I didn't ask him any questions
because my mind was blank and not knowing what I should do
or to say... I felt like I'm at the first time again!! --HOW
SILLY!!" Aww!!" ( I think there was too much of blood rushed
to my brain and overcame of my brainwave... )
Once again back into the ocean with all other single fishes
... Oooo... Jennifer Jennifer... I could just kick myself!--
Anyway....I hope he'll found and read this note; I want to
thank him for giving me the most wonderful days even though
it wasn't much!! Also I would like him to know I'll do my
best to get back into fashion designing once again!!
Although Fashion designing would be even harder than to see
him again. Because of him I'll do my best and try
again!...Or something better than fashion ... and will do it
for myself with him in my mind for the motivation.
I appreciated the encouragement he had given to me during
the time we were met!!